It is very easy to get discouraged with a 4 pound weight loss, as I had last month. I wasn't eating perfectly, two frozen yogurts snuck into my hands, but overall I was glad that it wasn't a gain. I am still having some strange health issue hopefully in a week I will be back for a follow-up appointment. The long and short is most likely I have gained a few pounds of a mysterious nature while losing fat/inches. I am glad, though, that I am taking measurements. They continue to go in the right direction: down.
Measurements - First 3 Months
Weight Wrist Arm Neck Bust Underbust Waist Hips Thigh Calf Ankle | January 1 310 7.5 18 16.5 52.5 46 54.5 60 33 20 9.5 | February 1 293 7 17 16 51 44 52 58 32 19 9.25 | March 1 286 7 16.5 16 50 43.5 50 56.5 32 19 9.25 | April 1 282 7 16 16 50 43 49 55 31 18.5 9.25 |
This past week my sister was in town from Chicago and I went off of my food plan 3 times: one on her birthday dinner I consumed gluten KNOWINGLY AND WILLINGLY when I ate a roll/breadstick with a lobster bisque soup, I ate soy sauce that contained gluten in a salmon dish I ate, and I ate an ice cream while we were in Old Town. It was my first ice cream in 4 months, so let me tell you, I really enjoyed it. I think the two times I got frozen yogurt the week before was like a gateway drug. I need to watch that as ice cream has always been my #1 drug of choice.
I am trying to stay present, but I am also having financial difficulties which are leading me to worry. Being a full time grad student and only working part time has depleted my resources. I am having to examine every dime I spend from here on out in order to make it... Which "making it" is even debatable. That's another topic, perhaps for my paper journal, but I bring it up because since January 1st I have been grocery shopping for only healthy whole foods/organic foods and paying for yoga and the YMCA. Along with two different jobs falling through this year, I am facing the fact that I have to alter my spending in every area. I do not want to return to eating gluten and feeling crummy... But I could live on Ramen and PB&J for a lot less than it costs to eat chicken, shrimp, salmon, and all fresh organic veggies and so on. If I have to give up the membership to yoga and the YMCA, I can go on walks. I can look on the bright side. I am just going to honestly turn it over to the universe for now.
Even with the inner turmoil, I can choose to be in the present moment. When I breathe and focus on trying to be my healthiest self I don't feel like the world is over. So hopefully I'll just continue to take it one day at a time.
I am trying to stay present, but I am also having financial difficulties which are leading me to worry. Being a full time grad student and only working part time has depleted my resources. I am having to examine every dime I spend from here on out in order to make it... Which "making it" is even debatable. That's another topic, perhaps for my paper journal, but I bring it up because since January 1st I have been grocery shopping for only healthy whole foods/organic foods and paying for yoga and the YMCA. Along with two different jobs falling through this year, I am facing the fact that I have to alter my spending in every area. I do not want to return to eating gluten and feeling crummy... But I could live on Ramen and PB&J for a lot less than it costs to eat chicken, shrimp, salmon, and all fresh organic veggies and so on. If I have to give up the membership to yoga and the YMCA, I can go on walks. I can look on the bright side. I am just going to honestly turn it over to the universe for now.
Even with the inner turmoil, I can choose to be in the present moment. When I breathe and focus on trying to be my healthiest self I don't feel like the world is over. So hopefully I'll just continue to take it one day at a time.