Yup. Guess it is. Ok.
Well. All that happy good positive feelies I had kinda went right out the window. I've been down, and down waaaaaay low lately. I've noticed how cynical I've become, and my head has been in some foggy grey clouds lately. It's been very hard to focus on things.
David and I auditioned for The Wedding Singer musical for TSP shortly after The Nerd was finished. The turn out was great, and it seemed like a great idea. Well...as I see it now, yes it was. However -and dear Miss Jordan (whom it has been incredibly lovely getting the chance to not just meet her, but meet her as a fellow blogger and put a face and personality to a name and posts) can attest to the trials and tribulations of this show. I won't go into details, there's way too many. I'll try to keep it simple.
I auditioned knowing that the director was in need of a stage manager, as the SM before me called and asked if I'd take over for him. IVE NEVER STAGE MANAGED BEFORE. I asked if he'd be cool with me auditioning first. He was. I got a call from the producer asking if I'd accept a different role and I told her to have the director put me where she needed me most. So here I stand, the stage manager. A learning experience, right? Yes. Totes. I learned more about myself tho. And I think my balls dropped during this show, so to say. I've never really spoken up or defended myself or had the guts to call someone out on shenanigans, but I've done all those things now...and I feel like my feet are a little more solidly placed underneath me.
And last night was our opening night. We got a standing o on opening night peoples! This show is amazing. The cast is amazing. My crew is amazing. My parents came out of the woodwork to join me backstage, and I have to say I'm a little teary over it-I know I'll never get them onstage with me, so to be able to share the stage with them backstage is the best ever. And they did come out onstage for pictures after the final tech. So I'm counting that.
But to get to where we are has been the roughest, most difficult, most trying time. If I could take a break from theater I probably would but not being onstage for this show has just lit a bigger fire under my ass and I'm ever so grateful Theater Undreground has things coming up because I'm DYING to get back on.
So the stress from the show has caused mixed eating habits, namely a lot of comfort food and beer. A cold one after rehearsal during vent sessions with my cast was....life saving. Or at least mind saving.
Before we started tech I was up quite a bit, topped off at 136.6. I wasn't happy about that. Cest la vie at that point.
I weighed myself yesterday, having successfully crawled through (what for me was) an emotionally charged tech week (ps we still don't have "real" lights) and I was at 132.4. Thanks stress. You made me not hungry and occasionally nausiated by food. So there's that.
Oh. I should also mention my little head fiasco, as the medications I was on had a few factors.
This gets a little girly, so consider yerselves forewarned.
I had the craziest most effed up cycle in January, no idea why. But from day one on, I was waking up with head aches and dizziness. Every. Damn. Day. I muddled through it for a little less than a month then it started to get more intense so I finally caved and went to the doctor, who sent me to the ER for testing, who couldn't find anything wrong and sent me to another doctor, who diagnosed me with migraines, and also gave me imitrex and norco. I don't know what the norco was for but it came in handy when I wretched my back. But the norco...as wonderfully sound as the sleep was, made me terribly terribly constipated, and I know KNOW that had to do with my weight gain. I know because I'm off both (the imitrex did absolutely nothing for me) and I've lost seriously about 3" from unbloating. Cuz I can poop again. Yay pooping.
The head crazies I've had have also diminished, they still pop up but they aren't as intense and the dizziness is far easier to work with. It's only in a few spells, usually when the migraine peaks, then I pop some Excedrin and get on my way. Excedrin is my new best friend. I've also cut a lot of coffee/energy drinks out so I think that's helping.
My new running buddy from A Christmas Carol is playing Julia in the show, and she's been urging me to get back on track, trying to get me to sign up for a half marathon in may. I'm not sure I have the time to train now, and I'm still waiting for the weather to warm up enough to jog with jack. I'd still like to run a few 5k's this yr. Money is getting pretty tight for us tho, so maybe I'll just make my own. Work back up to it then try to beat my previous times.
Anywhoser. That's all for now. Tanks!