Wow - I missed a whole week! Sorry about that. I made a commitment to "blog" every week, and I apologize for not keeping that commitment last week. I truly don't know how that happened.
I've spent that past few weeks meeting with recruiters, and getting signed up to be submitted for jobs by them. I've also been sending out tons of resumes in responses to help wanted ads. And, I've been networking, albeit online only at this point. And I've found that one thing that is holding me back in my online networking is the fact that I don't have a picture on my LinkedIn profile. Now, you may remember me explaining how the hardest part for me joining this group was taking the gosh-durn picture of myself. Because you know, the hated hair, hated glasses, and hated size. That picture angst holds true for the same picture angst on LinkedIn. Yet, the consequence of not having a picture on LinkedIn is much more professionally impactful than not having one here, and I've got one here!
I've been eating better, actually cooking a bit, and for now, I'm weighing myself every morning so I don't loose focus. And it's working. Also, I colored the grey in my hair. I've been getting some exercise in, and doing lots of projects around the house. I'm getting my "unemployment routine" in place, and it's GETTING THERE. So what the heck is my problem? I'll tell ya. I know what it is. I don't want to publicly post a picture of myself as I look today, because that would be a public admission that this is how I really look.
I'm still wanting to look like this.
As you know, I really look like this now.
So, what do I do? I want to commit to taking a better picture this week and putting it up on LinkedIn, but I feel crippled by fear right now. I'm starting to feel like that girl with the blue feathers in her hair again, so that's a win. But I'm not there yet feeling wise, and certainly not there looks wise. And yet, I never felt like I looked like the girl with the blue shirt on.
How weird is it that I feel most like me when I'm playing a character that isn't me? Whoa, that's like a whole Dr. Phil episode. Never mind.