I know you're shocked, but I didn't fully keep my commitments this week. I did track, but three days only. I did get out of bed every day, yet I only sweated 3 times, not the five I promised. But something is better than nothing.
But I do have good things to report - I start a three month temporary work assignment this week, which will keep me from sitting around eating all the time, so that's exciting! I find that when I'm busy, I tend to stay busy more easily. When there is nothing scheduled, it is difficult to start something, so having a regular job to go to should be helpful to me. That whole inertia breeds inertia thingy.
AND, I went to an audition! ME! The girl who is a big old chicken. But I felt like it was ok, that Daddy wouldn't be upset if I tried again, and it felt like the timing was good. I had alot of fun at the audition, and I was really pleased with how I did. And, as many of you know, that's all we can ask for as performers. Because if we DON'T get "it", it usually has nothing to do with our skill set, but moreso what the directors vision is. I've been too short, too young looking, and once even too "Jewish looking to play against [Bob] who is supposed to be Jewish but he doesn't look it". And that's ok.
And I went to the family portrait. I was happy with my hair - I flat ironed the bangs and they looked nice. I wore contact lenses, and a top I feel ok in. I had practiced my makeup so the red splotchyness was pretty well contained. But it was super hot in there and as soon as the lady said "OK, you're done", my husband was truckin' on out the door. So I had to leave it up to my sister to pick the best family shot to give to my mom. I'm afraid to find out what she picked; her little boys were acting up, and truthfully, I don't think any of us were very thrilled to be there. I'm certain the disdain was captured in the film. Hopefully, the next time we do this we can go outside, wear something comfortable and have a professional photographer (of whom I know a few) take a more fun, relaxed and enjoyable family shot.
Hopefully, I'll be able to get a digital copy of one where I look halfway decent, and crop myself out of it for my LinkedIn profile - remember that whole conversation? Yea, the whole point of picture anxiety.
On to this week's commitments:
- I WILL be getting out of bed everyday;
- I will exercise at least 3 times;
- I will plan my meals for each day and bring good lunches to work;
- I will wear makeup and put forth effort.
- I will NOT run until I find someone who will come to my house and run with me. And there better be cake (not margaritas) at the finish line.