I have decided to have a new focus. they say you lose weight when you are ready to make changes etc. Maybe I'm not ready. It's been 8 months and I haven't lost any weight doing this blog. I thought the shame of telling people my weight would help me make better choices- not working. I've decided to take the focus off losing weight and focus it on making exercise goals. If weight loss happens, great! but I can record my strength gains etc.
I have Lupus so that really affects my joints and muscles so it easy to be lazy when i am in pain- which is often. Because of my illness and meds it is common to lose bone density etc so exercise is important.
I've always liked walking for long periods of time, but never could make myself do pushups, crunches, etc. Thankfully I can afford a trainer in India. I am proud of my progress. I couldn't do 5 knee pushups, but started doing sets of 15. I tried to do pushups on my toes and managed 2. 3 weeks later, I am doing 3 sets of 15! on my toes! I need to go down further, but my trainer says just moving my body up and down is massive progress and when I can do 20, we will work on doing 20 proper ones all the way down. I do assisted pull ups on level 1, but just jumped up to level 3. I can definitely see progress in my strength. Imagine what I'd be able to do if I had 15 less pounds to lift?!??!
For now I am going to focus on the fact that I am able to move my body