The Bad News:
It was another uniquely stressful week, and another week of wussing out on my weigh-in. Judging by my home scale, I would've either stayed the same or gained just a tiny bit.
3/1/12 247.2
Pounds lost in January: +.8
Pounds lost in February: 0
Pounds lost in March: .6
Pounds lost in April: 0
5/2/14 177.4
5/17/14 178.2
5/23/14 (see picture)
The real reason I wanted to skip: it was just another week of not completely blowing it, but not doing very well. Man, I feel like I've had seven or eight of those in a row, although in truth it's only been two. I didn't drink my water- I had like maybe 25% of what I should have had every day. No physical activity apart from Stretch and Grow, which doesn't really count because while it's better than sitting on the couch, it doesn't keep my heart rate elevated long enough to really be valuable.
And I think I got a glimmer- just a little glimmer- of what it's like to be a Mom with young kids at home, and pour all of your efforts into giving them three healthy meals a day while neglecting your own nutrition. As Chris is recovering (he'll probably be working from home for six weeks), I'm bringing him breakfast, lunch and dinner, and I'm trying to help him stick to his diet while not getting too bored by his food. Logically, it SHOULD be easy to just make a little more of whatever I'm making him and eat that myself, and I did that about 75% of the time last week- but there were a number of meals where my food was just an afterthought. A month ago, when I was grocery shopping, I put a lot of thought and care into what I was going to have for breakfast and lunch, and lately I just think about what I can make for Chris. There was even a day I just grabbed some potato chips left over from a sleepover Natalie had last weekend, and called that dinner on my way out the door.
The Good News:
I'm glad I ate that potato-chip-dinner, cause not only did Chris call me out on it in a gentle way, but it opened my eyes to what I was doing. Putting care and thought into what Chris ought to have should NOT take away from what I need in order to stay on track. I might need to spend a little longer at the grocery store, or put a little more time into making a list before I go (which I can almost never bring myself to do), but I've got time to do that this summer, and no excuse not to.
As of yesterday, I'm back on track, counting my points, even counting them BEFORE I eat them rather than calculating everything at the end of the day and going, "Oh.. whoops."
And I have a new exercise goal!