Brace yourselves, folks: through little to no fault of my own, I gained 7.7 pounds this week.... I had a feeling this is how it would play out. TMI alert: I've got some major girly issues happening right now. My period was five days late this week, and then it came on like gangbusters. Usually my cycle is very unpredictable as to when it starts, so that's no big deal, but ordinarily once it starts, the flow is like clockwork, I know exactly what level of protection I need on each day. This has been unreal. I had to pull out the heavy artillery on night one, believe it or not, and get up to change three times in the middle of the night. I'm on day 3 which is usually my heaviest day anyway. So I KNOW girly issues are the culprit here.
I've also dropped weight the last few weeks in a row, so I was due. Whatever! I've got nothing but time, and I'm not about to let a little gain... okay, a major gain... throw me off track.
3/1/12 247.2
Pounds lost doing SpireSpire: 78.1
Pounds lost in March: .7
Pounds lost in April: 3.5
Pounds lost in May: 7.0
Pounds lost in June: 7.1
7/7/13 152.3
7/14/13 150.8
7/20/13 148.8
7/28/13 156.1
This week, I've felt strangely apathetic. I've been eating properly and drinking my water like a pro. I've slacked on my exercise, but apart from that, this has been a perfectly on track week. For months, my routine has been to hop on the scale twice a day- once in the morning and once at night- but I barely weighed in at all last week and only once this week. I don't know why.
It might be that I just had a feeling I was gaining this week and didn't want evidence to confirm it. I can always tell when I'm retaining water, bloated, etc. It might be that I suspect the Wii scale is being far, far too generous. I hopped on the scale at work, and it puts me at least ten pounds heavier than what the scale says at home. So that is discouraging- to think that maybe I haven't really lost nearly 100 pounds yet, maybe I'm not even in the 150s on a truly accurate scale. I've considered switching over- but then I'd feel like I lost so much progress. Which is not true! I've done the hard work and while switching over to the more accurate scale might make me lose a couple of milestones, it would have no impact on the amount of weight I've truly lost. And yet- I can't make myself give up those milestones. So I'm sticking with my generous scale, even if it's telling me sweet little lies. Feeling conflicted about that might be part of the reason for my scale apathy.
But ultimately I think the reduction in my desire to weigh in is a good thing... IF I'm staying on track. When I've regained weight in the past, that was one of the first warning signs- I'd stop weighing in. But I'd stop because I knew I was gaining due to the fact that I was overeating again. So this is new territory... eating like I know I should, but without the obsession over numbers. We'll see if it lasts. If it does, I might move to weighing in just once a week... crazy, right?
So it's birthday week! Chris and I share a birthday on August 1st. We're Eating All the Things today, so we can't do it on Thursday as well, and that may be a challenge... it'll help that we'll both be working. We'll do a nice dinner out, and I'm sure there will be cake (probably leftover birthday cake from work, which I know there will be because as the quasi-office manager it's my job to go out and buy it!). But it doesn't have to be a day-long free for all.
I've also dropped weight the last few weeks in a row, so I was due. Whatever! I've got nothing but time, and I'm not about to let a little gain... okay, a major gain... throw me off track.
3/1/12 247.2
Pounds lost doing SpireSpire: 78.1
Pounds lost in March: .7
Pounds lost in April: 3.5
Pounds lost in May: 7.0
Pounds lost in June: 7.1
7/7/13 152.3
7/14/13 150.8
7/20/13 148.8
7/28/13 156.1
This week, I've felt strangely apathetic. I've been eating properly and drinking my water like a pro. I've slacked on my exercise, but apart from that, this has been a perfectly on track week. For months, my routine has been to hop on the scale twice a day- once in the morning and once at night- but I barely weighed in at all last week and only once this week. I don't know why.
It might be that I just had a feeling I was gaining this week and didn't want evidence to confirm it. I can always tell when I'm retaining water, bloated, etc. It might be that I suspect the Wii scale is being far, far too generous. I hopped on the scale at work, and it puts me at least ten pounds heavier than what the scale says at home. So that is discouraging- to think that maybe I haven't really lost nearly 100 pounds yet, maybe I'm not even in the 150s on a truly accurate scale. I've considered switching over- but then I'd feel like I lost so much progress. Which is not true! I've done the hard work and while switching over to the more accurate scale might make me lose a couple of milestones, it would have no impact on the amount of weight I've truly lost. And yet- I can't make myself give up those milestones. So I'm sticking with my generous scale, even if it's telling me sweet little lies. Feeling conflicted about that might be part of the reason for my scale apathy.
But ultimately I think the reduction in my desire to weigh in is a good thing... IF I'm staying on track. When I've regained weight in the past, that was one of the first warning signs- I'd stop weighing in. But I'd stop because I knew I was gaining due to the fact that I was overeating again. So this is new territory... eating like I know I should, but without the obsession over numbers. We'll see if it lasts. If it does, I might move to weighing in just once a week... crazy, right?
So it's birthday week! Chris and I share a birthday on August 1st. We're Eating All the Things today, so we can't do it on Thursday as well, and that may be a challenge... it'll help that we'll both be working. We'll do a nice dinner out, and I'm sure there will be cake (probably leftover birthday cake from work, which I know there will be because as the quasi-office manager it's my job to go out and buy it!). But it doesn't have to be a day-long free for all.