Well, it's not what I was hoping for... I was dreaming of making it into the 160s this morning. I gained 1.1 pounds this week, for a total of 75.7 pounds lost since March 1, 2012. I will need to make up some ground and lose 4.3 pounds if I want to hit the big 8-0 next week as I cross the finish line over at SpireSpire. It seems unlikely. I'm not sure what happened this week... I did a pretty good job staying on track with food, far better than last week, when I lost 2.4 pounds, and I got a few good workouts in, too. It's possible that last week's slip-up is just coming back to haunt me!
3/1 247.2
Pounds lost in March: 17.4
Pounds lost in April: 4.8
Pounds lost in May: 8.6
Pounds lost in June: 6.6
Pounds lost in July: 4.4
Pounds lost in August: 5.8
Pounds lost in September: 5.6
Pounds lost in October: 6.0
Pounds lost in November: 4.4
Pounds lost in December: 5.7
Pounds lost in January: 5.5
2/2 172.4
2/9 172.8
2/16 170.4
2/23 171.5
This week has been at times frustrating, fun, exciting, and scary... I'm in job-search mode, which is nerve-wracking, waiting for interviews and phone calls and thinking about the prospect of putting in my two weeks notice (which would be a fun thing to fantasize about if my boss weren't essentially a nice lady). But the old cook is coming back to Kindercare after over a year of medical leave, so if I stay there, it's back into the classroom full time for me. I don't want to do that, so I'm looking hard for something else!
One very nice side effect of losing 75 pounds has been a huge surge of confidence. The way we feel about how we look seeps over into our interactions with everyone- strangers, friends, spouses, coworkers, prospective new bosses... and I know I'm making the best possible impression during my job interviews this week. Going in with the attitude of "How could you not love me and want me to work here? Look how adorable and competent and healthy I am!" has got to work in my favor.
I'm enjoying that confidence in other areas, too. I still occasionally hit a drive through and pig out- very rarely and only on a Saturday. I used to do this fairly regularly, and I'd be embarrassed to pull up all by myself and order enough for at least two people. Sometimes I'd order two drinks, to make the person who works there think I was ordering for two. One time (and this is so embarrassing I almost hesitate to tell you) I took out my cell phone and pretended I was on the phone asking somebody else what they wanted me to order for them.
3/1 247.2
Pounds lost in March: 17.4
Pounds lost in April: 4.8
Pounds lost in May: 8.6
Pounds lost in June: 6.6
Pounds lost in July: 4.4
Pounds lost in August: 5.8
Pounds lost in September: 5.6
Pounds lost in October: 6.0
Pounds lost in November: 4.4
Pounds lost in December: 5.7
Pounds lost in January: 5.5
2/2 172.4
2/9 172.8
2/16 170.4
2/23 171.5
This week has been at times frustrating, fun, exciting, and scary... I'm in job-search mode, which is nerve-wracking, waiting for interviews and phone calls and thinking about the prospect of putting in my two weeks notice (which would be a fun thing to fantasize about if my boss weren't essentially a nice lady). But the old cook is coming back to Kindercare after over a year of medical leave, so if I stay there, it's back into the classroom full time for me. I don't want to do that, so I'm looking hard for something else!
One very nice side effect of losing 75 pounds has been a huge surge of confidence. The way we feel about how we look seeps over into our interactions with everyone- strangers, friends, spouses, coworkers, prospective new bosses... and I know I'm making the best possible impression during my job interviews this week. Going in with the attitude of "How could you not love me and want me to work here? Look how adorable and competent and healthy I am!" has got to work in my favor.
I'm enjoying that confidence in other areas, too. I still occasionally hit a drive through and pig out- very rarely and only on a Saturday. I used to do this fairly regularly, and I'd be embarrassed to pull up all by myself and order enough for at least two people. Sometimes I'd order two drinks, to make the person who works there think I was ordering for two. One time (and this is so embarrassing I almost hesitate to tell you) I took out my cell phone and pretended I was on the phone asking somebody else what they wanted me to order for them.
But these days, I order whatever the heck I want without feeling one iota of shame about it. I'm not worried that the person taking my order is judging me, because my weight is no longer the prominent thing that jumps out when you look at me. But I also wouldn't care if they were! I'm more sure of myself and my decisions and my self-worth than I have ever been.
The only thing I'm not confident about is my ability to stay here, in this place where I feel great inside and out, where my drive-through pigouts are few and far between. This week was pretty easy. I bet next week will be, too, as I want to finish SpireSpire strong. But after that, I think I'll need to set a new goal/deadline... probably having to do with my cousin Molly's wedding in May! More about that next week. I know I'll need your support, so I'll bring you in from the very beginning!
The only thing I'm not confident about is my ability to stay here, in this place where I feel great inside and out, where my drive-through pigouts are few and far between. This week was pretty easy. I bet next week will be, too, as I want to finish SpireSpire strong. But after that, I think I'll need to set a new goal/deadline... probably having to do with my cousin Molly's wedding in May! More about that next week. I know I'll need your support, so I'll bring you in from the very beginning!