3/1/12 247.2
Pounds lost in January: +.8
Pounds lost in February: 0
Pounds lost in March: .6
Pounds lost in April: 0
5/2/14 177.4
I'm feeling better today, though. Don't get me wrong- this situation is still pretty sucky. I weigh .2 more than I did at the beginning of the year. From a distance, it looks like I'm just spinning my wheels. But actually, I've lost a total of 7.4 pounds since the first of the year. (Unfortunately, I've gained 7.6 pounds.) There's been plenty of movement. But my body seems to be extremely comfortable between 175 and 178 pounds, and it's a major struggle to break through it.
Part of me is tempted to throw in the towel and say "If this is where my body wants to be, then this is where I'm going to stay. I've been here for six months, so this is just what it's going to be. I give up." And it wouldn't be the world's worst thing to stay here forever (the only negative thing would be the way it would impact my employment with Weight Watchers).
But I can't give up, cause giving up means easing up on my efforts, and easing up on my efforts means I gain it all back. I've put in a lot of hard work over the last six months, and the result has been- staying the same. So I don't want to change my behavior- the only change would be in my attitude, in letting go of my hope that I WILL get into the healthy weight range. Why let go of that hope?
So I'm going to continue to believe that my efforts will eventually lead to busting through this mega-plateau- seriously, the longest plateau of my entire life. That I will see the 160s again (this time on a reliable scale). That I will comfortably wear size 8 jeans. That I'll look in the mirror and see a difference (the good kind of difference).
Onto something new and exciting! I know I've talked about him plenty on this blog, but this is my awesome fantastic perfect-for-me husband, Chris, seen here imitating one of his spirit animals, Pun Puppy.
But last Wednesday, 4/30, he turned over a new leaf. I'm going to take a little bit of credit for coming up with some external motivation- the details are between the two of us, but let's just say that I found the proper carrot to dangle in front of the proverbial donkey. He's trying out Weight Watchers again, and eventually he'll get a whopping 57 points to spend every day (I get 28! Unfair!), but for now he's trying Simple Start. To say it's going well would be a wild understatement:
4/30/14 286.4
5/4/14 272.6
That's right, folks- 13.8 pounds down in basically 3 freaking days. And one of those was an Eat All the Things Day!!! Yesterday I had some cinnamon french toast and a few strips of bacon from Brunch Cafe, two small cheeseburgers and some fries from McDonalds, two pieces of mushroom pizza and three pepperoni rollups from Pizza Hut, and late night Nachos Bell Grande from Taco Bell- a pretty standard amount of food for me on an EATT Day- and I gained 5 pounds yesterday. He ate right around that amount of food PLUS an entire Black Forest Cake pretty much all by himself- and he lost 3.6 pounds yesterday.
His biggest times of struggle are snacks at work and on the way to and from (as stated, breakfast/lunch/dinner is reasonably healthy around these parts). Once he's off Simple Start and onto points, some of those snacks will certainly be allowable. But for now, he's hanging in there with the aid of fruit. fruit and more fruit. We've probably spent almost $100 on fresh fruit over the last few days. It really adds up when you want 1) a large variety and 2) unlimited amounts of it to resist other temptations. Totally worth it. We've got pineapple, apples, clementines, starfruit, blackberries, raspberries, pears, grapes, kiwis, cherries and strawberries- and none of it is going to go bad. We may not be able to afford to keep up this level of fruitopia, but it's important to get a running start with this kind of thing.
His involvement has really given me a second wind, and for that and a hundred other reasons I'm extremely grateful. Good luck, hub!