Current Weight: 157
Starting BMI: 28.1
Current BMI: 25.3
It hurts my heart to write down those numbers, two weeks ago I was SOOOOO CLOSE to being at a healthy BMI and now I've almost slid back an entire month.... ::sigh:: Don't worry, I'm not sulking, honestly I wasn't even that annoyed at it until just this instant when I had to write it down. I have been trying to figure out this week why things were not moving in my favor, and I think I've pinned it down.
I've hit a place where my body is okay being. I've been doing BASICALLY what I've been doing for awhile (I had a couple of slip-ups food wise, but nothing that would have made me gain THIS MUCH back a few months ago). I haven't changed anything in awhile, I need to either kick the work-outs up a notch, or change up the food. Maybe to give myself a jump start I will do both. But, in all honesty what I really need to do is get back to a place where my work-outs are challenging. The problem with my stamina getting better for my runs, is that, I haven't pushed myself to go further, my just over two mile run (which used to take me 50-60 minutes) now takes me ~24, and my 5K route takes about 34-40 depending on my pace (I KNOW RIGHT?) so what I NEED TO DO is take a different route so I'm actually geting more time in again. While it's nice to be done in just about 30 minutes, clearly that isn't going to cut it if I want to keep moving down on the scale.
But like I said, I haven't even really been that bummed out about the weight this week. Partially because I've been a little stressed out (nothing major, I'm fine) and I think that has something to do with my body holding onto some extra weight, and partially because I've reached a point in my body shaping where EVERYONE seems to be noticing. Seriously, EVERYONE. Even the receptionist at work has noticed (and I don't use the front door EVER so I only see her once in awhile) and I think she was legitimately disappointed when the answer to her question of "What's your secret?" was "I'm eating better, working out, and I have great friends who support me" (THAT'S YOU BTW!). Also people are IMPRESSED when I say I've lost 18lbs since january (that's no longer true, but hey...)
When I first started getting the "you look great" and "have you lost weight" comments, I thought "they must be reading my blog" or "they've overheard me talking about my struggles" I didn't REALLY THINK that I looked that much different. That is, until I posted the pictures from the Warrior dash. Seriously, is that me???? I still don't see that girl in the mirror, all I can see is the stomach that won't go away, my hereditary chin (that has NEVER been super cute and skinny, even when I was 5 and super thin), oh yeah, and the lines (dare I say wrinkles) that are ever apparent on my face at the end of the day. But in those pictures, I'm cute, and look pretty skinny, even next to my skinny siblings...
I long for the day when my eyes have adjusted and I see that girl in the photos in the mirror.
So, stepping it up this week, my older Brother Ted is getting married next Sunday, and I would REALLY LIKE to be down to at lest 155, but hitting that next goal would be even MORE amazing. As always, I'll let you know how it goes. :)