Starting Weight:174
Current Weight: 158.5
Starting BMI: 28.1
Current BMI: 25.2
Hello again. It's hard to think that a few months ago I was in the 140s. I had lost ~25lbs... Now I've gained 10 of it back, and well... That's not very encouraging is it? I didn't post last week. Not because I didn't want to, but because I was soooo tired. Let's back up.
The week of June 9th, I felt really fatigued all week. SUPER TIRED at work, no motivation to do anything. I was supposed to go on a bike ride with Chris and a Friend of ours on the 14th (just a little community bike ride, the first AH has ever done) and I couldn't do it, I felt tired, and a little stomach sick. I met them for lunch, but then went home and took a nap (a 6 HOUR nap) and somehow still slept through the night. Sunday I didn't feel any better, and Monday at work was more of the same.
After looking up my symptoms on the internet (not all of which I'm describing BTW) I had 3 options: Liver Failure, Cancer (everything you have ever had wrong with you can be attributed to Cancer on the internet), Change in Diet and Activity (although, this one I only found on one site... THANKS INTERNET). I spent several hours thinking it was possible my liver was shutting down and that I should make an appointment with my doctor when I came across the last option, so I decided that Chris and I should bike to dinner.
The first 4 miles of the ride were rough, on top of not yet having real bike legs (biking takes so many different muscles than running, and I haven't been doing that either), I also was still feeling so tired. But I started to enjoy myself around mile 5, and although Monday was quite hot and humid (so instead of doing our normal loop around the forest preserve on the way to dinner which adds an additional 7 miles to our trip, we went straight there) I felt... Not awful when we got to dinner. After a smallish dinner, and watching a satisfying US win in the World Cup (I don't even like sports but this one was entertaining) we headed home, I didn't die, and in fact, the next morning I felt better than I had in days. So thank goodness, probably not dying of Liver Failure or Cancer, I just need to get my healthy(er) lifestyle back in check.
This knowledge wasn't enough to turn me around though. I still wasn't motivated to do anything all week.
The 20 minutes of Pilates I did on Wednesday (because it was raining and the gym was closing), and the one Mile run I did Friday (I came home, laid around, then after we ordered food decided I needed to do SOMETHING so made myself go for a quick one mile run before our dinner arrived) seem like weak attempts to turn myself around at best. I was running 6 miles during the week, and another 10-20 miles on the weekend, and I ran a marathon for crying out loud. I was eating relatively well, and yet now... I'm content to eat out most days of the week, the mile run I did was SUCH A CHOR (my legs got itchy and uncomfortable, I SO didn't want to do it), feeling good about my body has taken a back seat to tasty food and drink. I can see this happening, and yet, I won't take the simple steps to change it.
I am still drinking my water, I do track my food (though, I'll admit, sometimes it's the next day), and aside from a small sip of soda on day 3 (before I remembered that, duh, Dr. Pepper has caffeine), I haven't had any caffeine in 26 days (wow, I totally didn't realize I only have 4 days left for this challenge, although, I would like to keep these habits up). So I guess I'm getting NEW good habits, but I've let all my old ones slip away. One bike ride a week, does not a healthy Melissa make.
I have to figure out how to stay motivated to change my health for the better. My job is very fulfilling now, I don't dread going to work, and I enjoy what I do. I feel like I'm actually making a difference, and my bosses are noticing. This slip in my motivation happened just after the Marathon yes (so we could attribute some of my not caring to the dreaded post marathon blues) but also, just as I really found my feet in my new position. I used to go for a run to feel like I was doing something for myself when I had given everything else away. Now that I don't feel so drained and taken advantage of at work I don't feel the same NEED to do something for me when I get home. You would think less stress would be a good thing (okay, yes, it totally is, I just have to figure out how to make it work for me Body wise).
So I'm not totally sure where to go from here. This post is kind of a mess of thoughts, much like my actual brain. I still have a LOT of goals to check off the list this year (including adding strength training, and working with a trainer) so maybe one of those is the key... Who knows.
Thanks for reading. Good luck this week!
Current Weight: 158.5
Starting BMI: 28.1
Current BMI: 25.2
Hello again. It's hard to think that a few months ago I was in the 140s. I had lost ~25lbs... Now I've gained 10 of it back, and well... That's not very encouraging is it? I didn't post last week. Not because I didn't want to, but because I was soooo tired. Let's back up.
The week of June 9th, I felt really fatigued all week. SUPER TIRED at work, no motivation to do anything. I was supposed to go on a bike ride with Chris and a Friend of ours on the 14th (just a little community bike ride, the first AH has ever done) and I couldn't do it, I felt tired, and a little stomach sick. I met them for lunch, but then went home and took a nap (a 6 HOUR nap) and somehow still slept through the night. Sunday I didn't feel any better, and Monday at work was more of the same.
After looking up my symptoms on the internet (not all of which I'm describing BTW) I had 3 options: Liver Failure, Cancer (everything you have ever had wrong with you can be attributed to Cancer on the internet), Change in Diet and Activity (although, this one I only found on one site... THANKS INTERNET). I spent several hours thinking it was possible my liver was shutting down and that I should make an appointment with my doctor when I came across the last option, so I decided that Chris and I should bike to dinner.
The first 4 miles of the ride were rough, on top of not yet having real bike legs (biking takes so many different muscles than running, and I haven't been doing that either), I also was still feeling so tired. But I started to enjoy myself around mile 5, and although Monday was quite hot and humid (so instead of doing our normal loop around the forest preserve on the way to dinner which adds an additional 7 miles to our trip, we went straight there) I felt... Not awful when we got to dinner. After a smallish dinner, and watching a satisfying US win in the World Cup (I don't even like sports but this one was entertaining) we headed home, I didn't die, and in fact, the next morning I felt better than I had in days. So thank goodness, probably not dying of Liver Failure or Cancer, I just need to get my healthy(er) lifestyle back in check.
This knowledge wasn't enough to turn me around though. I still wasn't motivated to do anything all week.
The 20 minutes of Pilates I did on Wednesday (because it was raining and the gym was closing), and the one Mile run I did Friday (I came home, laid around, then after we ordered food decided I needed to do SOMETHING so made myself go for a quick one mile run before our dinner arrived) seem like weak attempts to turn myself around at best. I was running 6 miles during the week, and another 10-20 miles on the weekend, and I ran a marathon for crying out loud. I was eating relatively well, and yet now... I'm content to eat out most days of the week, the mile run I did was SUCH A CHOR (my legs got itchy and uncomfortable, I SO didn't want to do it), feeling good about my body has taken a back seat to tasty food and drink. I can see this happening, and yet, I won't take the simple steps to change it.
I am still drinking my water, I do track my food (though, I'll admit, sometimes it's the next day), and aside from a small sip of soda on day 3 (before I remembered that, duh, Dr. Pepper has caffeine), I haven't had any caffeine in 26 days (wow, I totally didn't realize I only have 4 days left for this challenge, although, I would like to keep these habits up). So I guess I'm getting NEW good habits, but I've let all my old ones slip away. One bike ride a week, does not a healthy Melissa make.
I have to figure out how to stay motivated to change my health for the better. My job is very fulfilling now, I don't dread going to work, and I enjoy what I do. I feel like I'm actually making a difference, and my bosses are noticing. This slip in my motivation happened just after the Marathon yes (so we could attribute some of my not caring to the dreaded post marathon blues) but also, just as I really found my feet in my new position. I used to go for a run to feel like I was doing something for myself when I had given everything else away. Now that I don't feel so drained and taken advantage of at work I don't feel the same NEED to do something for me when I get home. You would think less stress would be a good thing (okay, yes, it totally is, I just have to figure out how to make it work for me Body wise).
So I'm not totally sure where to go from here. This post is kind of a mess of thoughts, much like my actual brain. I still have a LOT of goals to check off the list this year (including adding strength training, and working with a trainer) so maybe one of those is the key... Who knows.
Thanks for reading. Good luck this week!